A 17 year old girl that writes the way she talks. - Qaisara Afiqah

Tuesday, May 1, 2012

Miserable at best

"It's just a bad day. Not a bad life." True that.

It's been a while since the last time I blogged. I hope everyone is doing fine. Me? I promise I'm still alive. I have been super busy these days. There's a lot going on right now. I wasn't lying when I said I was busy. Apparently, my school isn't giving me any space. Eight freaking hours at school every weekdays and sometimes, even on weekends. I have logged in to my blogspot a couple of times before but honestly, I didn't know what to post. I just kept staring at my laptop screen, thinking about what am I gonna say, how am I gonna write it. Each and every word that I could think of just kept spinning and spinning inside my head, I just didn't know where to start. So again, I just wanna apologize for not updating anything. And to those who is still following me and kept checking on my blog, thank you so much. It means a lot to me :)

So I have been through loads of bitter and bad moments these days but I do believe that everything happens for a reason because all God plans, nobody knows. I am still thankful and always will be in the future with everything that God gives me because I know He knows best and no matter what happen, either if it is good or bad, it will still be for my own good. The harder the life is, the stronger I will be and when the stronger I am, the more courage I will have to face the world. I'm only 16 years old and I know I have a long way to go, a very long way to go.

Sometimes I remind my friends that no time is too early to plan something like your future, I guess maybe I should start using my own advice from now on, I need to keep reminding myself what are my targets so I don't end up drifting off my track, for my own good and for the sake of my own future. There are also times when I ask myself, what will happen to me in the future? Where will I be 10 years from tomorrow? Will I succeed or will I fail? I never seem to know the answer. I mean some people might have already planned everything since they were little, they know exactly what they want and where they wanna be in 10 years from now, but sadly I'm not one of them. Well I was but then as I grew older, I realize that we don't always get what we want and not everything will turn out the way we wanted it be and that is when I became the type of girl who goes with the flow and to be honest, that worries me, a lot.

Precious jewels.

I guess I need to work hard from now to achieve my dreams because miracles don't always happen and we can't just depend on luck. Like I said before, the future is unexpected and you will never know what might happen in the next couple of years. 


zati ain said...

u know what?if i got a problems i always read your blog,it makes me feel.....keep writing !

Qaisara Afiqah said...

Thank you so much. It means a lot to me :)